I wasn’t sure what to write tonight. I could go on and on about this pretty pink dress, and how it makes me feel beautiful and good about myself, but that wouldn’t be 100% true. No dress can validate your existence. Taking a million pictures till you get the right one does not make you any more or less beautiful. In this blogging journey, I’ve undergone some serious stress over things that just don’t matter. Every time I post a picture, all I can see are my flaws and the pictures that don’t look perfect. Although I am aware that perfection is an allusion, these feelings are still so hard to shake. Unfortunately, these feelings are not unique to me. I know girls who agonize over what to post on Instagram, and while I am all for posting great content, sometimes we need to remind ourselves that our worth isn’t based on how many likes or followers we have. So instead of focusing on my exterior and the clothes I wear, for the month of November I will be writing about the things that make me the person I am. The things I am thankful for.
This week I will start out by writing about the relationships I am thankful for, and I’m not just talking about romance. I of course need to start this off with the people I first forged a relationship with: my family. I am so blessed to be part of a loving, caring family. It is so rare to find someone whose family fully supports their dreams and aspirations, but I have just that! I cannot tell you how very grateful I am that I have never heard, “what’s your backup plan,” from my immediate family when my choice to be a music major comes up. They truly believe that I can succeed at anything if I work hard and set my mind on it.
Now on to my lifelong friends. I have not always been the easiest person to be a friend to, but I have so many wonderful friends who have stuck with me through the ups and downs, and I am blessed enough to have two friends who I have loved for over a decade. In today’s society, this kind of deep lasting friendship is rare. So thank you two for living through our pimply preteen years, first crushes, awkward trends, SAT anxiety, and several moves.
The fact that I have friends who I have known for as long as I can remember doesn’t diminish the friendships I’ve come to be a part of more recently. In the past year I have met so many wonderful and inspiring people that I am lucky enough to call my friends. They challenge me to be better, inspire me to pursue everything with zeal, and reassure me that everything is going to be ok when it feels like the world is falling apart. Thank you for making life more exciting, and for accepting me with open arms.
Finally, I am so grateful for my wonderful boyfriend. He keeps me calm, and brings so much joy into my life. Thank you for helping me understand that despite what other boys have said, I am not crazy or unreasonable for showing my emotions, for helping me see my beauty even on days when all I can see is the pimple on my face, and for knowing the difference between when I need to talk about something and when all I need is a hug.
I hope that this will inspire you to think beyond the surface and to take time to give your blessings the recognition that they deserve.